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So I want to thank everyone who has left me comments and sent me private messages. I was really nervous about posting the other day because it was a big deal for us. Now everyone would know the fact that currently, we can’t conceive. Would they judge us or blame us? How would my husband feel. (Answer, super supportive and proud of me for proving to myself I’m strong enough and brave enough to write what I wrote). But it was pretty nerve wracking.

So thank you to those who have showed your love and support to us since Monday, we are very grateful. I know a lot of people have questions about infertility, myths, etc so here are some links that might be useful.

25 Things to Say (and not say) to Someone Living with Infertility.

This one is very similar but I love the name of it. How Not to be a Dick to Your Infertile Friend. 

Here is some FAQ from the CDC compiled in 2013.


Everyone has a secret.

Hope everyone out there had a great weekend. Hoping you got to spend it with friends and family. I was with my military family, and missing my real family.

While yesterday was Easter, it was also the beginning of National Infertility Awareness Week, and with that I would like to say a few things.

I feel everyone has some type of secret they live with every day. And ours is dealing with the battle of infertility.

Statistics show 10 to 11% of women struggled with infertility. What exactly does that means? It means that 10 to 11 percent of women are unable to conceive while trying for a period of 12 months or more between the ages of 15-44. Roughly 1.5 million.

And roughly 7.4 million in that age range having sought out infertility treatment services.

Read some quick FAQ about infertility here.

With that said, I am someone who struggles with infertility.

But you’re only 26, you say. It doesn’t matter.

But you’re healthy you say, that also doesn’t matter.

It will happen when it happens, just relax you say, no, it actually may not.

Your husband is gone all the time you say, trust me he has been home enough in the last two years for me to know whether or not we have a problem.

We started seeking treatment this time last year, after a year of struggling on our own.

After seeking medical assistance, we found out on December 30th 2013 that we were pregnant. It was the best feeling in the entire world.

And 10 days later, the worst feeling in the world. On January 10th 2014 we were forced to the ER, only to find out that we were having a miscarriage.

Three moths later and we still grieve for our child that we never had. We would have been 20 weeks pregnant today, halfway to our due date of September 9.

There is not a single day that goes by where I don’t think about the future that we almost had.

For the most part, we have kept many things to ourselves and our closest friends and family. We have been telling others as time has gone on. At first I didn’t know how common miscarriages are. But as I’ve spoken to others, they are more common that I could have imagined.

The reason I’m sharing this today is because I hope that me sharing my experiences will help just one person. For that one person, know you are not alone. And I am so sorry for your loss and your struggles. I wish I could help you. But know how brave and strong you are.

As we come up to the two year mark of trying to conceive, it hasn’t gotten any easier. It is now a part of daily life between doctors appointments, research, answers, more questions, tests and so much more. And watching those around us immediately conceive, or announce their second and third child, it is a constant reminder of what we don’t have and what we’re missing.

Something that seems so easy for others is unbelievably difficult and saddening for 10 percent of couples.

I want everyone to understand the reality of infertility for millions of people and couples. 1 in 8 couples. Think about how many couples you know….it’s a scary reality.

So I ask you this, please go to this link to grab an image and change your Facebook cover photo to show support for me and millions of others like me. There are options to choose from, like “Someone I love is 1 in 8.”

Please help me promote awareness so I can help others who are struggling every day with infertility.

I am 1 in 8.

Today was the BEST day ever.

Why you ask?

Because HOGWARTS is real.

No joke.

You can get your acceptance letter, enroll in Hogwarts, open a Gringotts bank account and enroll in online Hogwarts classes.

My first class will be Astronomy. You can also take Charms, Defense Against the Dark Arts, Herbology, History of Magic, Potions and Transfiguration.

The site explains that as a First Year you take 7 classes, up until your third year and then more options will open up and you can visit Hogsmeade.

The currently have a notice on their site saying that it is running really slow, due to press they have a ton of viewers (psycho’s like me who couldn’t wait five seconds to join up) and they are working on expanding servers.

Here is the link where I found out about it.

And here is the actual Web site.

Seriously best thing ever. Now please excuse me while I go write an essay on my favorite constellation for my First Years Astronomy class.

No I’m not kidding.

Best. Day. Ever.


SPOILERS from tonight’s episode (which was AMAZING).

Originally posted on Inside TV:

[ew_image url="" credit="Kelsey McNeal/ABC" align="left"] SPOILER ALERT: If you haven’t seen Tuesday’s episode of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (and for that matter, if you’re even halfway interested in the Marvel-verse and haven’t yet seen Captain America: The Winter Soldier), do not read beyond this opening paragraph. This post contains massive spoilers concerning the plot twists and character developments in “Turn, Turn, Turn,” as well as speculation on future storylines. You’ve been warned…

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So today is Day 18 of my 30 Day push up and squat challenges that I mentioned in a previous post. Yesterday was a big day with 135 squats and 30 push ups. Today will be 75 squats and a rest day for push ups.

So I do these exercises at night usually after my evening work out or after dinner. So far I have to say it’s going pretty well. I think I had to take two days off, separately because I got home really late and was flat out too exhausted to do them.

But I have to admit, it’s really hard to do these while I’m doing other workouts.

Between Zumba (we do squats in that class!) and a weekly cardio and tone class (squats, lunges and a lot of upper body work outs) it’s definitely been a challenge. Throw in yoga and a running….I’m feeling it.

I’ve started skipping the zumba songs where we do squats because my legs are tired or it’s suppose to be my squat rest day.

In yoga on Tuesday night we were holding the warrior pose for a long time and I had to keep taking breaks because my quads were done for. Plus there were a lot of other moves where I found it hard to hold myself up because my shoulders and triceps were fatigued.

But I’m doing my best. My husband has done the last two days with me and will be doing to rest of the 30 days with me. I had to laugh when he made the push ups look so effortless. But after a three mile run, squats and our push up challenge I think he was at least mildly tired. I learned (again) never compete with a Marine for fitness, I will never ever win!

I’ll update again when I’m done. I’m absolutely enjoying these challenges. I can see and feel the difference especially in my arms. In the past I struggled with push ups, and I still do especially with the diamond push ups but I’m improving.

I’m going to have to start looking for some new challenges to do when I’m done. Any recommendations?


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